today is as good a day as any

last week, my sister gave me half a bottle of zyban, and a whole dose of quit-smoking speech.
i came home to phx and started reading up on zyban, and quitting smoking. it seems there are not very many reasons to continue smoking, although the reasons to quit are astoundingly numerous.
1. people that love me want me to stop
2. $$$
3. i got winded the other day (everyday, doing everything)
4. mom died of cancer, mom's dad has heart issues, dad's dad died of heart issues, dad's bro is in hospital waiting for new heart
5. i'm engaged, and i'd like to try married LIFE
6. it's getting too cold outside to sit outside all day
for reasons 7 through 1,000,000, visit http://www.google.com/search?q=smoking+dangers

i just took a pill. it is a little after 10 AM, and i handed my smokes to Amy (of aforementioned engagement) and told her i am not to get another one until 2 PM, and another at 6 PM and 10 PM. of course, i smoked one just now. tomorrow, i shall smoke at 10, 2, 6, and 10 again.
already i am looking at the ashtray trying to scout out a butt with some juice left in it. this could be tough. i'll have to dump the tray, and put all my butts in the shitter from here on out.
i'm going to bring my computer inside, drink lots of water, and stare at the clock until 2.
maybe i will use that time to see how hard it is to post on this blog from my phone. or take a 4 hr nap ... that would work well.
in any case, i have started a journey, and we shall see how it goes.